Day 20 - Breaking the Cycle

It’s heartbreaking to admit that you just cannot accomplish something that you have your heart set on. In my life, that meant an embarrassing and tearful conversation with my new husband (who loves me regardless of my weight).

I am fortunate to have someone who immediately reassured me that regardless of how I chose to move forward, he would be there and we would find the humor in this situation as always (he is a master at making me laugh). I have a strong suspicion that this support will be the key to my long-term success.

After coming to terms with the fact that I can no longer manage my weight long-term on my own, I immediately took to the internet to immerse myself in everything Bariatric surgery. Honestly, this was the first time I had not spent hours scouring the internet for new diets, after being triggered to change.

If you’ve ever been on the yo-yo dieting treadmill, you know that there is a cycle. First you spend an unspecified time eating like the world might burst into flames tomorrow, then you feel guilty and start to suffer the consequences of  your unchecked behavior, and finally you have some sort of reality check (like someone tags you in a photo on social media) which triggers you to take action.

For the first time in 11 years, I was taking a completely different type of action to manage my weight, and for the first time in 11 years, I felt like I might actually get somewhere different. Have you ever heard the saying, “the definition of insanity is doing the same things over and over, but expecting different results?”  I didn’t want to be a yo-yo dieter for even a second more.

Jennifer and her supportive husband